Where would we go?

As I have been struggling with God over tragedy he has brought to mind a couple things. Being totally honest, I am not really happy with where I am in my faith walk sometimes or even with God's answers. I want to be "in the know," and obviously, that is not going to happen. First, is the disciple, Peter, who responds after Jesus asks if they, his disciples, will leave him; "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life" (Jn 6:68). For me as well, he is the only option. And second is God's response to Job, after he has been pushed beyond what would be conceivably bearable and is questioning God's reasoning; "Where were you when I laid the earth's foundations?" (Job 38:4). I've never liked that book very much.